Hawx The Bishop

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Decided im going to start using tumblr more.

I’ve been very busy musically recently. Things will surface eventually although right now I have no real time scale.

Musically I feel refreshed and driven as always. I have found a variety of different things that I have turned my hand to, things right now seem limitless. It’s truly a great feeling.

I am very excited at the moment, I can’t wait to get stuck in with what I have planned, and I can’t wait for people to hear my work in the future.

You will not be disappointed.

hx

For friends I made during my time with BK

Hey guys, 

Obviously recently has been a pretty crazy time. Good luck to Blitz Kids, I hope they have a very prosperous future and achieve great things. It was an amazing 7 years for me and I will never forget the great times we had together.  

Now, I know many fans of the band were upset by the lack of unity which the band was supposed to stand for. I completely understand this. However, just as the band will continue and gain new members and carry on, I too shall carry on. Life is pretty complex, and sometimes there is no solution but to part ways with something or someone. My meaning for forming the band was to make music I loved, and to stand for something. As the statement says, personal issues made it very difficult to carry on. I understand their decision and I wish them the best of luck.

As for people I spoke to, I stand by everything I have said in the past, through blogs and from when I spoke to friends of the band at shows, you know who you are. It was a privilege, and I always loved speaking to everyone because that’s where I felt I belonged. You were the life and soul to me, I will miss this more than anything else. I worked very hard night and day and I thrived off connecting to people who were like-minded. 

I have always loved to write music, it is in my blood and I have been doing it since I was just 6 years old. My passion for music is ceaseless and un-ending. This passion is what motivated me - just a lad from Crewe with no contacts in the industry - to take the first steps towards an ambition and a dream. Years later, after co-writing 3 EPs (RUX incl.) and an album, I feel I have grown substantially, and as people we achieved some amazing things. But now we must move on.

I am very thankful and emotionally touched from all the support I received through such a difficult time. You may never know how much it means to me, but I will remember it, I promise.

Everything I stand for and have spoken about has not wavered. My values are the same, and I am intact. I have some truly amazing friends who not only inspired me 7 years ago to form the band in the first place, but also are there to support me today. I’m very thankful to my girlfriend Amber ‘The Steel Lady’ Peach for her ongoing support and understanding, with her by my side I feel reinforced, true love.

But now I have my work cut out, this is just another chapter for me and it will be worth it. I will never lose the fire in my heart, the passion and the drive that has got me through so much. 

Thanks for reading this. I wish Blitz Kids the best of luck in the future and I hope someday we can all be sound. 

As for me, watch this space.

Hawx

Never relent.

xx

life mode turn on/off

you hear some people say “just chill out life is fine”. you hear others say “life sucks i wish i was dead”. sometimes i hear both of these within minutes of each other from different people.

i wouldnt be able to write this if i felt completely fine all of the time. i wouldnt have started a band if i felt ok all the time. thats because i dont feel alright all the time, nobody does. its peaks and troughs. but sometimes the troughs go deep and you dont know when its going to pick up again. its hit and miss constantly. 

personally, the peaks of my life have been attained as a result of something really shit happening to me. when something negative happens, i drown in despair, but a short while later it spurs me on to keep fighting.

ive lost alot of friends in the past to all sorts of stupid shit. one thing i realised at a young age is that honesty does not make you popular. ive always been straight with people, i dont fuck around. by being honest to someone, i see it as a mark of respect. they deserve my honesty, because you know, fuck lying. fuck chatting shit behind someones back. 

because of this ive often had a pretty turbulent time with people. i can be pretty intense, i can see it on peoples faces when i talk to them and i can tell they dont like it, so i back off. others thrive on it just as i do, and those are the people i have come to know very well, my best friends. 

those are the people i respect the most. those who can look me dead in the eye and know what the fuck is going on. those who i can trust, and those who know they can trust me. those who never turned their back on me and kept their trust in me. i will always repay those people for the belief that they had in me as a friend, and as a human being. il always thank them for picking me back up when ive stumbled, dazed and confused, not totally myself in the midst of lifes bullshit. those people gave me the lift i needed. i will be friends with those people for the rest of my life.

but sometimes you’re alone. sometimes you dont have that person to talk to. sometimes people just can’t relate to your situation. obviously, the more complex the situation is, the harder it is for people to empathise fully because they can’t put themselves in your position. that is hard. feeling surrounded by people who you trust, but who can’t help you as much as they’d like to, is a very tough experience.

its at this point where it becomes an inner battle. it becomes you vs you. you question yourself, your beliefs. you look in the mirror and despise yourself because you don’t know who it is youre looking at. you don’t know if the person you have been for so many years, the person who brought you to this point, is a saint or a sinner. you don’t know if its all been bullshit this whole time and only now you have realised. 

the fact of the matter is, if something hurts you to the point of nightmares, then its not you. in my eyes, if you are honest, faithful, trustworthy, if you tell people straight what you think, if you are reasonable, logical, and friendly, then you are a good person. 

and if youre not, it is never too late to be a better person. im not saying change everything about your life, or to follow a religion, or live your life by a certain set of rules. but above is just my own guideline for what makes a person, and its actually pretty fucking simple. just be a good person. there is no need for a hidden agenda. because no matter how successful you get by backstabbing your way to the top of the pile, you will die regretting all the shit you left behind you on your own selfish little errand to fame and fortune.

id rather be doing what i love for modest pay than earning mega bucks being a cunt to people. money does not buy respect. not to me. and it never will.

so along your journey, be careful who you trust. the good ones will come out of the woodwork eventually, but itll happen sooner if you are a good person too. 

and if your trust is broken, dont question yourself, and dont question your judgement of others. instead, keep working on yourself. you meet alot of people in your life, you just have to sieve out the dickheads. only the ones who remain are the ones you should trust. 

so you know, keep your head up high. life is easy, life is hard. life is fucking complex. just be sure to be as nice as you can be. dont be one of the cunts.

hx

Anonymous asked: Oh man, Eddie, thank you so much for that last post. Really aind truly, thank you.

no need to thank me, i needed it and figured others may need it too! x